I am truly blessed…two weeks ago I could barely get out of bed and was wondering how in the world I was going to entertain my husband’s parents who were arriving for ten days but as always my prayers were answered. I started medicine for Lupus which the doctor told me it would take a month to take effect. Right before my in laws arrived the energy kicked in and I started to feel so much better. I can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel and it feels so wonderful to feel better. Most of us take feeling good for granite but until you feel really bad do you realize how blessed we are to have good health. I thank God everyday for my blessings and I am looking forward to getting back to life and making a positive difference in this world. Thank you for all of your prayers; they have been answered in abundance!
To live in the moment can be very challenging. Often we get caught up in our lives of running place to place, answering phone calls, checking emails and worrying about the past or future which causes us to lose focus on what is happening around us.
Many of our thought patterns prevent us from being in the present and focusing on what is currently happening at the moment. We are so busy that we find ourselves living without awareness and just going through the motions because we are so lost in our own thoughts.
Awareness means we are in the here and now becoming aware of everything that is happening at the present moment. We are controlling our thoughts instead of letting them run on autopilot. We are acting instead of reacting and funneling our negative thoughts and responses into the positive. By being aware and staying in the present will allow us to focus on what is in front of us instead of what was behind us or what maybe in the future that is out of our control.
By focusing on the here in now we are not wasting our energy on what we have no control over. We are not constantly thinking what if this happens or what if that happens. We only look at the present and plan for the future. This takes a lot of work to think this way but once you begin you will find your life becomes a lot less stressful and your mental state will be much calmer.
Stay in the present and focus on what is important the here and now.
Many blessings!
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Today has been one of those days….I guess you would say it is a Lupus zapping energy day. I tried so hard to get things done but every time I started to do something I ended up back in bed. The nausea was overwhelming and my body ached from head to toe. The more I tried to do something and could not the guiltier I felt, so I had to call my husband and tell him how sorry I was but I couldn’t get out of bed. I so wanted to feel good and be happy and chipper but it is difficult to fake it. I thought about the times when I have been judged for not wanting to do something because I feel so bad and I thought about the times I have judged others unfairly not knowing their situation. This is a lesson I have learned today… to truly not judge others because you never know what their life is like until you live in their shoes. I think back at how many times I have judged others in a negative way and how unfair I was. To judge others is a hurtful act and I vow from this day forward to try my best not to judge others in a negative manner. The next time someone says to you they cannot do something because they are not feeling well or they could not call you back because they were having a bad day, have some compassion and do not judge. On any given day not everyone has as many spoons as you may have whether they are healthy or not. This article will explain the spoons…
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/navigation/BYDLS-TheSpoonTheory.pdf
Remember if you judge people you have no time to love them. Mother Teresa
Thank goodness tomorrow is a new day! J
Many blessings,
Melissa
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For several months when I awake in the morning my hands are stiff and hurt. It is hard to open my hands as they are stuck and ache with pain. Once I get them moving the pain slowly goes away and then comes the task of getting out of bed. As my feet hit the floor, the pain of the soles of my feet shoot through my body, I walk crooked like I am a ninety year old women as my knees, back and neck or stiff and aching. This too passes the more I move but getting there is hard. The worst part is the debilitating fatigue and brain fog. At times I feel like I am going to lose my mind because I cannot think straight and the depression is overwhelming. When the noise gets loud it is overwhelming in my head and I wonder to myself am I going crazy. My head pounds with pain intermittingly throughout the day and my face constantly itches. My nerves are at their limit and my attitude is short. I continue to keep a smile on the outside but I wonder why do I feel this way, is it all in my head, am I making myself ill always focusing on the way I feel, what can I do to make myself feel better. As my husband goes to work every day, and I get up only to find myself back in bed before noon, feeling such guilt wondering maybe I am just lazy. So I tell myself maybe I need exercise or possibly I have a vitamin deficiency, I try to get in the sun and exercise. The symptoms continue to get worse and I find myself in a major depression not knowing how to get out of this downward spiral. Each morning I pray to God to give me a diagnosis and make me feel better. Friends and family ask me if I have gotten a job and I smile and say not yet but deep down inside I wonder how I could work and keep it all together. I believe my family and friends think it is all in my head so I keep it to myself and continue to pray, besides focusing on the negative is not going to get me better, either. After numerous doctor visits, and crying in many of their offices finally I received a diagnosis that I have Systemic Lupus. The diagnosis was a relief to finally know what was wrong with me yet made me angry and sad that I had yet another hurtle to deal with in my life. So I cried, yelled at God “why me” and then finally accepted that this is just another way to make me strong. I wonder if this was presented to me to help others with this disease and perhaps it helps me understand what it is like to have a chronic illness as so many people in this world suffer from everyday. Perhaps I am supposed to show the world how you can turn around by looking at the positive of this. My skin will glow as I will never be a sun goddess again living in Florida since the sun flairs Lupus. Each day I will appreciate life even more to be alive and living in this wonderful world.
I have released my sorrow and anger to God and I am ready to live my best life with God by my side and being a blessing to others. I truly believe that God puts obstacles in our way for a reason and I know there are bigger and better things on the horizon for me. I have jumped over this hurtle, the door is closed and I can’t wait to see the new door open. I am excited to have this behind me and to start taking care of my body the way I should have a long time ago. I am so ready to live life to the fullest and see where our awesome God takes me. I know that I will be a blessing to others and I am stronger than I have ever been.
I would like to thank my friends and family, especially my husband for standing by me through these past months and putting up with me J. Our God is an awesome God and I am truly blessed with wonderful friends from all over the world and I have a fabulous family…what more can a girl ask for.
May God bless you!
Melissa